Confessions of an Energy student
Over the Summer of 2021 I studied and read constantly on the subject of Energy and what it means to work with and experience energy. Through my studies I became certified in Usui Holy Fire Reiki ~ the word Holy is not to be confused with religious connotation but rather refers to that which is whole or complete. In Reiki, the practitioner is attuned to Universal energy (which goes by many names) so that they can work as a channel and holder of space for the experiencer to experience that which they need to experience. Through giving Reiki this experience has taken many shapes; deep relaxation, measurable levels of stress relief and reduction in anxiety, shifts in perspective, creative hits, deep purges of emotion, and my favourite…sleep.
To experience energy work is to give yourself the opportunity to slow down, to pause, to reflect, to be still, to be present ~ it truly is an opportunity to begin a deeper relationship with yourself. I think that is why I’m so driven to work this path, I love self-study, I love getting to know the subtle nuances of being in this human experience, and I love sharing with other so they can experience their own self-psychology.
In my Reiki training, I’ve had two major releases. The first was the idea that I’m not good enough…at anything; it may sound stupid but this is a common unconscious believe held by most of the planet! Any time you are afraid to shine your brightest light or be your most authentic self, there it is…I’m not good enough. Granted this is still something I work with but I know it now for what it is, a thought form that has no basis is truth, it’s the ego trying to separate me from my true inner guidance, it’s a past experience I had a some point (probably in childhood) that I’ve dragged into the present to shadow over whatever it is I’m trying to be/do. Now I can see clearly when this happens and I have the tools to bring myself back to authenticity, the present, and inner stillness.
The second release was a physical release. I’ve held onto the grief of loosing my Grandma for the past two years, it’s not a debilitating grief but rather the kind of grief that maintains a low hum of sadness, loss, and anger in the body ~ it’s the kind of grief that would tighten my chest if I thought about the last few months of her life or even the happiest of memories from when I lived with her. It’s the kind of grief that does not have a place, it’s just stuck energy, energy without motion. Through specifically working with the intention to release this energy from my body, relaxing the heart space, and inviting in peace, love, and letting go I was able to feel the grief physically leave the body…sounds crazy right?! It felt crazy, but in the best way. My peer was working on me for this specific session and as she moved from my head to my chest I felt a slow rush of warm energy bubble up in the heart and bubble over like lava or warm honey, slow and steady. It was the most soothing and comforting feeling; I could instantly see my Grandma in that moment clearly, without the depth of grief and only through the lens of love and peace ~ and in that moment the tears had freedom to flow, creating more space to release.
As I was finishing up my Reiki training, currently certified as an Advanced Reiki II practitioner, I was preparing to being my Sound Healing Certification with The Sound Healers Academy that Fall. Reiki and Sound Healing I’ve found to be two complimentary healing modalities and I often use them together in sessions to hold a deep space for healing and experience.
Sound Healing really took my journey to the next level, both personally and professionally ~ another experience that left me forever changed.
In love & light,
Melissa
In my next confession…how Yoga & Honey is born; the business of Wellness.
